We all drag our feet sometimes. We can even get sick from such stress. Our muscles tighten and cramp, we become unstable and unhappy when the odds are against us. It's normal to need help along the way in meeting the challenge. Whether it be a cup of coffee or a good friend to talk to, success doesn't happen due to your efforts alone. Your network of caring people have aided in the process. Some of us learn to deal with feeling overwhelmed and exausted by inventing ways to cope. We imagine a new stronger and better self. We shed our old skin and feel refreshed. This is part of the human condition. Resilience is learned; some argue it's genetic. Is it?
Today I woke up feeling rebirth. Although tired, I felt ready for the day. My list of things to do felt like a small pile of feathers.The daunting task of house maintanance, studio work, home life and car issues have piled high. These things keep existing whether I like it or not. They have no pity on how I feel nor do they care if I am tired and put them off. They exist in my own head, they are goals I think of to make me feel successful. Does success come from accomplishing your goals or is it recognition for those goals you have completed? Is it self satisfaction? Is it connected to self drive?
I got a lot done today. I'm working on these forms that are influenced by land formations and icebergs. Its like taking a two mile x two mile piece of earth and shrinking it so we can see it in its entirety. You can walk around it and look at the cross sections of earth from different angles. Earlier in this blog I talked about the time it takes to make friends and get connected, I think the same is true for making art, it takes time. It's not like art work just appears after you touch the materials. A thought process is present and ideas develop and change. Research is conducted and learning happens. For me not every project is the same so there is always a learning curve.These experiences allow me to scaffold ideas and knowledge in future projects. I keep adding to the skill set. This keeps me excited about the work I do.